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Riona ([personal profile] rionaleonhart) wrote2017-07-20 08:38 pm

Leave Out All The Rest.

Chester Bennington has died.

I'm devastated.

You were a big part of my early teens. I thought going to see Linkin Park in concert would just be a fun nostalgic thing, but you were so good on stage. I've been hoping I might be able to see you perform again ever since then. I can't believe it was only on the third of this month.

I'm glad I was able to see you once, at least.

Thank you for giving me so much joy over the last fortnight. And, on a less intense level, thank you for the joy you've given me over the last seventeen years. Also, fuck you slightly for being the reason I've been sitting here and crying for the last hour? (I'm trying to proofread this entry right now, and I can't see the screen through my tears.)

But 'Leave Out All the Rest' asks us to forget the wrongs that you've done. So I'll forgive you, I suppose. When I'm not quite such a wreck.

It also says, 'Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed.' I think you left behind your own reasons.

There'll never be another.

God, I fell so hard for you and we never even met.

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[personal profile] wolfy_writing 2017-07-20 07:42 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry.

I'm shocked. Just completely shocked.
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[personal profile] facetiousfutz 2017-07-20 07:44 pm (UTC)(link)
I can't even comprehend this. Damn it. I loved you, Chester. You were a big part of my teens, too.

Fuck. Fuck everything.
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[personal profile] facetiousfutz 2017-07-20 09:47 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry too. I'm in so much pain right now. Damn it, Chester. I fucking loved you. What happened? What can I do to help it not happen to someone else? I wish I knew.

(Anonymous) 2017-07-20 07:47 pm (UTC)(link)
-pats- I saw the news and wandered over as I'd seen you getting back into Linkin Park lately. It's awful news, but it's also very surreal when somebody kills themself not long since you've last seen them (even if only in concert). Happened to me with someone I knew but wasn't necessarily friends with who spoke to me less than a week before they died and this kind of made me think of that.

Oh. Hopefully this isn't inappropriate, but... Not a Linkin Park song, but a personal favourite song of mine about grief (I believe also written about the death of a band member) that I find a little comforting in times like these. Maybe will help you? (Although it may also make you cry more, so...)

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[personal profile] magistrate 2017-07-20 08:07 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh god. I'm so sorry to hear this.

Watching you be so excited about Linkin Park has been the most engagement I've had with the band in... probably since highschool, and it's made my weeks a lot better. There's definitely something to be said for someone who can have that kind of effect at one remove.
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[personal profile] nanslice 2017-07-20 08:40 pm (UTC)(link)
You were quite literally the first person I thought of when I heard the news. I'm sorry.
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[personal profile] marginaliana 2017-07-20 11:43 pm (UTC)(link)
I, too, thought of you when I saw the news. So sad, so sad.
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[personal profile] bironic 2017-07-22 02:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Same. My thoughts have been with you. In a way, I'm glad you were able to go to that concert and enjoy this resurgence, even for a short while, before the news hit? Like reconnecting with a long-lost friend before a premature end. *hug*
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[personal profile] lassarina 2017-07-21 01:13 am (UTC)(link)
Honestly I thought of you when I heard, because of your recent posts.

I'm sorry.
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[personal profile] gulliblesnail 2017-07-21 01:34 am (UTC)(link)
I though of you too when I saw the news - I'm so sorry.
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[personal profile] gulliblesnail 2017-07-22 12:36 am (UTC)(link)
Not ridiculous at all.
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[personal profile] seeingpenguins 2017-07-21 04:27 am (UTC)(link)
I read about it on twitter just a little bit ago and was another person to immediately go "OH NO RIONA" - at least seeing overwhelming love and celebration for him on there is something, but man, I've been shocked since reading about it. It's so sad.
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[personal profile] apiphile 2017-07-21 08:53 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah I kind of ... thought of you as soon as I heard. I hope you're okay. It seems very sudden and far too soon.
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[personal profile] apiphile 2017-07-21 09:59 am (UTC)(link)
I feel like it might hurt less but you'd also be left with a pretty big sense of "what if I could've" if you hadn't been able to see him before he went.
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[personal profile] newbie1990 2017-07-21 08:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Another person who thought of you when they saw the news. It's such horrible, heartbreaking, shocking news.
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[personal profile] collartheory 2017-07-22 01:20 am (UTC)(link)
I will chime in that, when I read the headline while on break at work, I thought immediately of you. I hope you're okay.