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Riona ([personal profile] rionaleonhart) wrote2017-09-20 11:49 am

The Light On The Horizon Was Brighter Yesterday.

The surviving members of Linkin Park have put out an official music video for 'One More Light' in memory of Chester, and noooooooooooo I can't handle this. It's a beautiful video, and in a way it's cathartic, and I'm glad to know they've been doing something creative to work through the pain, but also I sobbed so hard while watching this that my chest physically hurt afterwards. These poor guys. I wish I could hug all of them.

Mike did a radio interview as well, and it's really good to hear from him, but also there's a part where his voice starts to get unsteady and it's absolutely unbearable. I think I'm torn at the moment between 'it's really good to hear from the guys and know they're still around and haven't just stopped functioning' and 'I've spent so much time worrying about the pain they're in, and now that pain is even more real because I can see and hear it'.

Linkin Park is still my primary fandom, which means that I've been thinking about this most of the day, every day, for two solid months. It's easier now, but it's still a bit miserable. I'm desperately awaiting the new Dangan Ronpa game's release, hoping it will successfully distract me. Please just let me worry about fictional deaths for a while. No more getting invested in real people. I've learnt my lesson, I swear.

This whole thing has given me a little more faith in humanity, at least. I've seen so much kindness, so many complete strangers reaching out to each other, offering love and support to Chester's friends and fans and family. At heart, people really want to help those in pain.


On a lighter note, here are a couple of incredible things I have seen recently:

- this reinterpretation of High School Musical's 'Get Your Head in the Game'. (This link is actually to a reblog on the Tumblr account I secretly have, but I wouldn't recommend following it, because it's nothing but sobbing uncontrollably over Linkin Park. This blog is still the place I actually talk about things. Tumblr doesn't really suit me.)

- the trailer for American Vandal. Rei and I booted up Netflix, saw the description for this show, went '???????????????????' and had to watch the trailer. We're afraid to watch the show itself in case it doesn't live up to the trailer's promise.
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[personal profile] wolfy_writing 2017-09-20 11:59 am (UTC)(link)
Yes, that is heartbreaking. I can't imagine what they're going through. (Every time I open Youtube, the top video is Linkin Park's 'Heavy', and I've watched it a few times, but it's so much sadder now.)

When is the new Dangan Ronpa coming out?

I didn't know about your secret Tumblr! (And yeah, it's super-weird for communication.)
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[personal profile] wolfy_writing 2017-09-20 02:16 pm (UTC)(link)
It's hard with something like that where you have a connection with them, so you want to comfort them, but they don't have the same kind of connection with you. I don't know if they have an address for fan mail or something where it's possible to send a card or a letter?

Okay, so nine more days! (I promise to not suddenly develop the ability to play video games other than Kingdom of Loathing, win the game, and post spoilers where you can see for the next nine days.) And yeah, this sounds like a good occasion to treat yourself.
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[personal profile] wolfy_writing 2017-09-20 02:36 pm (UTC)(link)
It sounds like you've done what you can, and they've taken some comfort from it. Knowing you, I know you probably still want to hug them, but it sounds like you've done everything that's appropriate in offering comfort.

That is really kind of her! I know this has to be an extremely difficult time (that's an understatement - I don't even have words for how hard this must be), and she's actively trying to do go for others, and encourage potentially lifesaving help!
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[personal profile] dracothelizard 2017-09-20 06:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh my God, that trailer looks amazing. Who drew the dicks? WHO?
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[personal profile] dracothelizard 2017-09-21 06:35 am (UTC)(link)
...I don't watch true crime documentaries, but I think I may have to watch this. That's brilliant.
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[personal profile] wolfy_writing 2017-09-21 01:25 am (UTC)(link)
I just watched that basketball video and that is possibly the most amazing thing in the universe! Why is that not the entire movie series?
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[personal profile] wolfy_writing 2017-09-21 09:26 am (UTC)(link)
I know! It's just this happy little bit of ridiculousness!

[personal profile] rosa_heartlily 2017-09-22 06:57 am (UTC)(link)
It is a beautiful video and a lovely tribute.
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[personal profile] pete_thomas 2017-09-22 06:12 pm (UTC)(link)
I saw this and broke down. I was already emotional over him and this whole thing, but with what's been going on in my life as of late it was just wrong place, wrong time. Same thing though; full body sobbing. The kind that feels like it cleanses your soul.

Sometimes I wish that someone would tell me it's just some fucked up joke. But then I see the tributes, and other people (like yourself) who are experiencing the pain the way I have, and I remember I won't be waking up from this, as much as I'd like.

My heart goes out to you for any pain you feel. <3 We'll make it through, together. If there's one thing we can count on, it's that.
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[personal profile] pete_thomas 2017-09-22 07:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Don't be sorry! It's been hit or miss for me. Some days, I'm fine. Other days I stalk his Twitter and read all of the responses of shock, hurt, pain, and loss and try and remember it's not just me. I did really want to see them live. I don't think I honestly can now. It's a shame because we DID have tickets, but it was cancelled because Chester broke his foot. It's been a journey, to say the least. Thanks for asking though. <3