Sorry you’ve been driven to...exercise. Truly desperate measures.

I hope things get better. Years that represent transitions can be weird and hard sometimes. If you decide to talk to a professional, I hope you get a good and helpful one the first time. And being honest with your friends is definitely a good idea. (I’m pretty sure that filling my journal with massive tedious feelings dumps is part of the reason why things have improved for me.)

Have a wonderful Christmas with your delightful and strange family!