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rionaleonhart) wrote2019-06-15 05:53 pm
rionaleonhart) wrote2019-06-15 05:53 pm
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I'd Let You Put Your Foot In My Mouth.
I've finished the main route of Chaos;Child!
Of all the fucked-up murder videogames I've played, Chaos;Child is the most fucked up, which is no small feat; it's a little too much for me at points. It was interesting (and horrifying), but the characters never entirely clicked with me and I haven't yet decided whether I'm going to go back and do the rest of the routes.
Spoilers; highlight to read: I did really like the scene where Takuru, deprived of all sensory input, ends up visualising Serika and having warm, friendly interactions with her, despite the fact that she ruined his life. He needs someone, and he still loves her; he can't help himself. This is incredibly up my street, and if I do play the rest of the routes it'll probably be so I can write fanfiction about it.
Chaos;Child is drowning in pacing issues and weird fanservice, but it's got some of the most impactful voice acting I've ever heard. It makes me believe 'yes, this character is in fear for his life' like no other canon I've ever experienced. Rumours that I've made specific save files for points at which the protagonist does particularly good terrified breathing have yet to be confirmed.
More Scrubs notes:
- This rewatch has really clicked for me. The constant sexism is still grating, but it's still a really enjoyable show and I enjoy its messed-up cast. (Sitcoms are generally a good place to look if you enjoy characters who are psychological disasters.)
- I love Dr Cox's habitual angry nose touch.
- I had no recollection of Dr Cox enthusiastically miming Kelso banging his wife (while yelling 'BAM BAM BAM BAM') in 'My Case Study'. I don't know how it managed to slip my mind, because it is extremely memorable.
- I've reread all the Scrubs fanfiction I wrote when I was seventeen, and it's much less terrible than I expected! There are things I'd do differently if I were writing these fics today, absolutely - a little less overexplaining, maybe a little more awareness of how fucked-up I made the JD/Cox relationship sometimes, hopefully I'd be better at disguising the fact I have no idea how hospitals work - but they're still fun. I'm proud of teenage me. I think I'm a bit hard on her sometimes.
(I do, however, have a bone to pick with seventeen-year-old Riona for making Dr Cox call JD by both my aunt's and my cousin's names during a sex scene. I can understand that she was probably casting around desperately - you run out of female names very quickly if you're writing Scrubs fanfiction - but still!)
- I want to write some Scrubs fanfiction now; I think it'd be really interesting to go back and write for this fandom again! But I don't really have any ideas, alas, and I'm struggling to recapture the characters' voices.
The other problem is that I'm mainly interested in Dr Cox/JD and Dr Cox/Elliot, both verbally abusive age-gap power-imbalance relationships, and I'm not sure how to write fic that keeps the humour of the canon and doesn't veer too hard into 'wait, this is horrifying'. This is a line I didn't always manage to walk as a teenager. These relationships aren't healthy and I don't intend to make them out to be, but I also don't want to make them so unsettling that the fic ceases to be fun. It's tricky!
Of all the fucked-up murder videogames I've played, Chaos;Child is the most fucked up, which is no small feat; it's a little too much for me at points. It was interesting (and horrifying), but the characters never entirely clicked with me and I haven't yet decided whether I'm going to go back and do the rest of the routes.
Spoilers; highlight to read: I did really like the scene where Takuru, deprived of all sensory input, ends up visualising Serika and having warm, friendly interactions with her, despite the fact that she ruined his life. He needs someone, and he still loves her; he can't help himself. This is incredibly up my street, and if I do play the rest of the routes it'll probably be so I can write fanfiction about it.
Chaos;Child is drowning in pacing issues and weird fanservice, but it's got some of the most impactful voice acting I've ever heard. It makes me believe 'yes, this character is in fear for his life' like no other canon I've ever experienced. Rumours that I've made specific save files for points at which the protagonist does particularly good terrified breathing have yet to be confirmed.
More Scrubs notes:
- This rewatch has really clicked for me. The constant sexism is still grating, but it's still a really enjoyable show and I enjoy its messed-up cast. (Sitcoms are generally a good place to look if you enjoy characters who are psychological disasters.)
- I love Dr Cox's habitual angry nose touch.
- I had no recollection of Dr Cox enthusiastically miming Kelso banging his wife (while yelling 'BAM BAM BAM BAM') in 'My Case Study'. I don't know how it managed to slip my mind, because it is extremely memorable.
- I've reread all the Scrubs fanfiction I wrote when I was seventeen, and it's much less terrible than I expected! There are things I'd do differently if I were writing these fics today, absolutely - a little less overexplaining, maybe a little more awareness of how fucked-up I made the JD/Cox relationship sometimes, hopefully I'd be better at disguising the fact I have no idea how hospitals work - but they're still fun. I'm proud of teenage me. I think I'm a bit hard on her sometimes.
(I do, however, have a bone to pick with seventeen-year-old Riona for making Dr Cox call JD by both my aunt's and my cousin's names during a sex scene. I can understand that she was probably casting around desperately - you run out of female names very quickly if you're writing Scrubs fanfiction - but still!)
- I want to write some Scrubs fanfiction now; I think it'd be really interesting to go back and write for this fandom again! But I don't really have any ideas, alas, and I'm struggling to recapture the characters' voices.
The other problem is that I'm mainly interested in Dr Cox/JD and Dr Cox/Elliot, both verbally abusive age-gap power-imbalance relationships, and I'm not sure how to write fic that keeps the humour of the canon and doesn't veer too hard into 'wait, this is horrifying'. This is a line I didn't always manage to walk as a teenager. These relationships aren't healthy and I don't intend to make them out to be, but I also don't want to make them so unsettling that the fic ceases to be fun. It's tricky!
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Oooooohhhh
...A friend of mine once played me Devil May Cry 4's cutscenes ranked by the quantity & quality of pain/fear noises from the protagonist.
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Okay, I just got around to reading this, and please write fic!
I'm proud of teenage me. I think I'm a bit hard on her sometimes.
Yeah, you write well! And you have been for a while!
I do, however, have a bone to pick with seventeen-year-old Riona for making Dr Cox call JD by both my aunt's and my cousin's names during a sex scene.
LOL
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Thank you! ♥
There are so many names in the world! Look at some baby name websites; don't just go 'hmm, what names should I use for this sex scene? I GUESS MY AUNT'S WILL DO.'
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I've never seen Scrubs, but I feel you on this part. Sometimes I'll look up from what I'm working on an hour or a day later, realize "wait, this isn't really entertaining anymore, just legitimately unpleasant", and wonder what happened.
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It's such a tricky balance to strike! I really like Dr Cox, I don't want the reader to think he's entirely despicable, but I also want him to have irresponsible, mocking sex with a subordinate who's slightly in love with him and fifteen years his junior. When I was a teenager I just cheerfully wrote dubcon without worrying about this. It was a simpler time.
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(I will forgive the delusion where he fantasises about his career as a BL voice actor, though, because that's hilarious.)
So, question. Which scene is the best scene for Takuru sounding utterly terrified? I figured you'd be the one to know.
(As for continuing on: I wasn't a fan of most of the girls' routes, but the true route at the end is all about Serika after Takuru remakes her to be a normal girl. He didn't quite do as good a job as he could have.)
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(oh noooooo, that sounds really interesting. Part of the reason I was going 'I'm not sure if I'll do the individual routes' was the fact that, as far as I'd heard, there didn't seem to be a Serika route; I suppose that's because the plot of the game itself is the Serika route.)