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Riona ([personal profile] rionaleonhart) wrote2022-07-27 05:37 pm

Actually, None Of It Makes Any Sense To Me.

Perhaps predictably, I went down with COVID two days after my theatre excursion. I suppose I was bound to get it sooner or later; at least I got it doing something fun. I'm fully vaccinated, and it seems like a mild case. If this is the cost of an evening with my perfect Mormon boyfriend Kevin Price, I'll pay it.

I don't know if it's a consequence of COVID, but over the last few nights there have been odd moments that may have been real or may have been dreams, and I can't tell. I think there were a lot of tapping noises under my bed a couple of nights ago, and they suddenly stopped when I turned on my light? But I don't know if that was real.

There was a weird moment last night when I woke up suddenly, convinced my heart had stopped, with my own hands around my throat. Unless I dreamt that?

Basically, I've turned into a character from one of my fics, and I'm perplexed by it.


Here are some more notes on The X-Files! We're partway through season two; I think the last episode we watched was 'Fresh Bones'.

The arsonist episode is trying to persuade me that Mulder has at some point had sex, but I am not fooled.

Mulder and Scully's relationship is extremely weird, and I'm enjoying it a lot. Mulder, if you want to comfort your colleague, you can verbally express your sympathy; you might give her a hug if you're close; you might put a hand on her arm or shoulder; that's all normal and acceptable. You don't tenderly rest a hand against your colleague's cheek.

'Ascension' is a great episode for demonstrating how obsessed and codependent Mulder and Scully's relationship has become. Also, I'm cracking up at this dramatic scene of Mulder speeding in a cable car.

Hugely enjoy Mulder being fucked-up and single-minded and making terrible decisions in the aftermath of Scully's abduction. 'I don't sleep any more.'

For a moment, I really thought Mulder was going to bang Scully's sister while Scully was comatose.

I'm so pleased that the weird intimacy between Mulder and Scully has ramped up after she was abducted. In the episode after her return, 'Firewalker', Mulder touches her so much: his hand on her shoulder, cradling her jaw, stroking her hair.

Reaching across the table to clean food from the corner of her mouth! You're so weird with your colleague, Mulder!

Mulder instantly loses his mind whenever Scully is missing or unsafe, and I love it.

Both Scully and Mulder have a habit of going on long philosophical rambles in the opening of their reports before getting down to business, in a way that makes them sound like they're writing a recipe blog:

But our fear of the everyday, of the lurking stranger and the sound of footfalls on the stairs, the fear of violent death and the primitive impulse to survive, are as frightening as any X-File, as real as the acceptance that it could happen to you.

I've made this lasagne on many occasions.
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[personal profile] magistrate 2022-07-27 05:12 pm (UTC)(link)
So what you're saying is, COVID has turned you into an X-File.

(Those are some of the more unsettling COVID symptoms I've run across. Hope you feel better soon, and reality reasserts itself.)


[in a way that makes them sound like they're writing a recipe blog: ]

I laughed because it's true.

(I ran into a story published back in 2015 – So Much Cooking, by Naomi Kritzer – which was basically the Apocalypse, viewed through the frame of a cooking blog. I had not gone back to re-read it since COVID. Reading it in a world with COVID is more than a little painful.)
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[personal profile] sholio 2022-07-27 07:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh no!! I hope it will continue to be mild and you'll feel better soon!

Brains can do wild things. A few years ago when I had just come back from Europe (8-hour time difference from Alaska) and was massively, massively jetlagged and trying to reset my schedule, my brain seems to have spent a lot of time in a sort of vague sleeping-waking state that was really weird. Among other things, I remember feeling completely physically unmoored, so that I had no idea what orientation my body was on the bed (sideways? vertical? can't tell!) and being awake enough for noises and other things around me to translate into my dreams but not knowing what part of it was dream and what was real.

So basically ... brains are weird, and it's incredibly disorienting to be caught in that sleeping-waking boundary where you can't tell what's real. I hope yours will ease off pretty soon!
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[personal profile] necrophilia 2022-07-27 07:51 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm SORRY.
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[personal profile] necrophilia 2022-07-28 12:57 pm (UTC)(link)
The power of the astral plane romance cannot be denied. Just ask Severus Snape, Elder of the Mormon Church™.
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[personal profile] newbie1990 2022-07-27 08:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Ack nooo, sorry you're experiencing both Covid & sleep-weirdness, hope they both vanish into the mist! (Clearly, you should be having unsettling dreams about Kevin Price, not unsettling waking dreams(?) about weird tapping and heart failure.)
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[personal profile] marginaliana 2022-07-27 10:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Ayyy, waking up like that sounds awful. Yikes. Here's hoping it doesn't continue!
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[personal profile] graveexcitement 2022-07-27 11:07 pm (UTC)(link)
hope your covid case stays mild & you recover swiftly!
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[personal profile] trepkos 2022-08-01 08:24 am (UTC)(link)
You make me want to watch this!
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[personal profile] horselizard 2022-08-01 10:32 am (UTC)(link)
oh no! :'( hope it stays mild/you recover quickly/you're able to keep it away from housemates/you can take it super easy for a while to reduce the post-viral fatigue risk <3
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[personal profile] horselizard 2022-08-02 08:51 am (UTC)(link)
oh nooooo! i'm very glad you're better but sending lots of get-well-soon vibes to housemates <3