rionaleonhart: the mentalist: lisbon, with time counting down, makes an important call. (it's been an honour)
Riona ([personal profile] rionaleonhart) wrote2017-12-24 11:42 am

Stuck In My Head Again.

This year's been a bit of a psychological struggle. I miss being enthusiastic about things! But there's still love and kindness in the world, and I'm grateful for all of you.

(I don't want to go into the state of my head in any great detail, but, to clarify any worries, I'm not in danger and the people I love are okay. I'm just having a lengthy existential crisis that's making it hard to concentrate on anything. I've started exercising, which is supposed to be good for your mental state (please imagine this in the most disgusted tone possible: exercising. I can't believe it's come to this), and I'll look into talking to a professional if things don't get any better.

Part of it might just be a product of being twenty-nine. I remember being prone to existential crises at nineteen as well. It wasn't a real age; it was just 'almost twenty'! Just a non-stop year of 'am I really about to turn twenty?' So maybe I'll calm down once I actually hit my thirties.)

I try to keep this journal an upbeat place most of the time and not to get too personal, so I'm a little nervous about posting this, but I thought I should probably be honest. I haven't been at my best, but I'm trying to look after myself, and I'm looking forward to spending Christmas with my wonderful, ridiculous family.

More importantly: it's Christmas Eve, and you know what that means!




(I originally considered putting Ardyn in Christmas garb for my annual Christmas manip. Turns out there's already official art of that.)

Have a wonderful Christmas, if you're celebrating it! If you're celebrating something else, have a wonderful celebration; if you're not celebrating anything, I generally wish for good things for you. Spend time with people you love; do something creative. I love you all.
squeemu: Magpie holding a ring in its beak. (Default)

[personal profile] squeemu 2017-12-27 03:01 am (UTC)(link)
<3 I hope things get better for you, and I am very glad to hear you have a plan of action in place. And I definitely know the feeling of wanting to keep your journal upbeat or not too personal. I find that being able to present that face to friends can be a comfort sometimes, but yeah. It's also very important to reach out or even admit vulnerabilities sometimes, too. I'm glad you felt comfortable enough to share it, even if it was difficult.

Thank you for all the posts you've continued to make on DW; it's wonderful to see at least one person who still updates regularly. (I regret not doing more.) I'm always happy to see that you've made a post and are still alive and consuming fan things, even if I don't know what they are or have much to say about it. And thank you for posting all those FFXV fics (I need to read more of them) and responding to mine.

I hope you have a wonderful 2018 and you find moments of enthusiasm!
Edited 2017-12-27 03:03 (UTC)